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Written for the 2016 [livejournal.com profile] spn_j2_bigbang
Characters: Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester
Length: About 21K words
Rating: R for language and show-level violence


A season 2 casefic that takes place immediately after "Playthings." Still reeling from John's revelation that Dean might have to kill his brother, the Winchesters find themselves in Nashville. They're investigating a case in which people are being brutally murdered by their loved ones, which cuts just a little too close to home, considering that Sam is trying to get Dean to accept that he might have to kill his own loved one.

My first casefic! \o/ Huge shoutout to my lovely artist, [livejournal.com profile] stargazingchola. Please visit her art post and show her some love (note that the art is spoilery, so please read the fic before you visit her art post.)

Many, many thanks to my wonderful betas, [livejournal.com profile] celtic_forest and [livejournal.com profile] gingersnap1224.

Also available on AO3

The title and chapter titles are from the One Republic song Stop and Stare.

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Title:I don't think the world is sold (I'm just doing what we're told)
Author: [livejournal.com profile] caranfindel
Artist: [livejournal.com profile] matchboximpala
Rating: R for language
Warnings: Language you can't use on the CW, show-level darkness, overuse of run-on sentences
Word Count: 11,400
Summary: After Sam jumps into the cage with Lucifer, Dean would do anything to undo it. What happens when he is given that opportunity? Written for the 2014 [livejournal.com profile] spn_gen_bigbang, and also fills the "dark" square on my bingo card for [livejournal.com profile] spnspiration


Notes: Massive thanks to two writers who are much better than me - [livejournal.com profile] indiachick, who gave some much-needed advice very early on in the writing process (Look! I'm finally posting it!), and [livejournal.com profile] balder12, my wonderful beta, who was also full of good advice, and if you don't find yourself saying "that makes no sense," thank them. Getting help on Supernatural fic from these two is like asking Jane Austen for advice on your Regency romance.


[livejournal.com profile] matchboximpala created the gorgeous graphics, which can also be found on her art masterpost, and I loved both of the styles she came up with so much that I couldn't choose, so you get both.


The title is from the song "Counting Stars" by One Republic.




The road stretches out in front of the Impala, dark and empty, and Dean thinks it's a pretty good metaphor for the rest of his life. )

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I'm watching In My Time of Dying right now (for someone who has an actual full time job, I seem to end up at home watching Supernatural reruns on TNT for some reason, not that I'm complaining) and comparing the boys then and now is just heartbreaking. Poor baby Sam, such a badass confronting the demon who smashed into their car, desperately asking the EMTs if John and Dean are alive, watching his entire world slowly fall apart. Confused, scared Dean being forced to make an impossible choice. And both of them having so much faith in each other. (And to make things worse, an adorable Zillow commercial with a couple rejecting house after house because their little boy doesn't like the yard, and then finding the perfect house with the perfect yard for him and his unborn baby brother... GAWD. KILL ME NOW.)

Usually when I rewatch this episode (because it's one of my favorites), it's all about Sam and Dean. But the thing that really hits me today is John. The way he apologizes to Dean, tells him he's proud of him - basically, gives him some nice last words. Gives him a goodbye. And Sam? Does Sam get this nice goodbye? Does he apologize for disowning him? Does he tell him he's proud of him? No. He tells him "half the time we're fighting, I don't know what we're fighting about, we're just butting heads" (neatly avoiding any blame) and then says "I've made some mistakes, but I always did the best I could" (again, shrugging off the blame for any of the horrible things he's done and said to Sam, because they were just "mistakes" and he did the best he could) and then dismisses him, knowing it's the last time they'll ever see each other. So no, Sam doesn't get any last words from his father that could possibly make him feel better. He doesn't get to hear his father apologize for what he did wrong, or tell him he's proud of him. He gets the blame shifted to him. You know what? Fuck you, John Winchester. 
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First, I have a confession to make. I didn't vote. I couldn't choose between the two top contenders. But luckily, it didn't matter - it was close, but my one vote wouldn't have made a difference.

The top two episodes were In My Time of Dying and What Is And What Should Never Be. Both feature Dean at a crossroads, forced to either accept the painful direction his life has naturally headed, or to do something that seems easuer right now, but will lead to more misery in the long run. In IMTOD, Tessa the reaper explains to Dean that he's going to die either way, but he can either follow her into whatever comes next, or refuse to leave, which seems like the easier choice, but will lead to him becoming a vengeful spirit. We don't really know what decision Dean would have made, but personally, I think he would have made the right choice - to move on. His face, when he realizes he would become the type of thing he hunts, says it all for me. Later, in WIAWSNB, Dean is given the choice of staying in the djinn's dream world and living a long happy life (knowing it's a fantasy and he's dying in the real world), or going back to his real life. And again, Dean makes the right but painful choice to leave the dream world and go back to his own brutal reality. He goes where his life naturally leads him instead of seeking what was not meant to be.
And the winner is... )
And it's a great choice! Thanks so much to everyone who voted.
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I know. It's impossible. They're all good. But we're going to pick the best of the best. This time I've given you a brief synopsis of each one in case you can't remember what they are. Ready? (Also, Linda Purl is supposed to be Linda Blair but I can't fix it without redoing the poll. Sorry, don't know where that came from.)

Pick as many as you want - every episode you like to rewatch. We will narrow them down later.

I think this will be a lot more interesting and accurate if more people vote, so if you don't mind, send your friends! Lets try to vote by midnight your time, Tuesday April 1.
take the poll )

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