Take these broken wings and learn to fly

Genre: Het, I guess? Gencest? Doesn't conflict with Wincest
Length: About 2300 words
Rating: PG
Characters: Sam Winchester and family
Synopsis: Sam's life after 15.20, from his wife's POV

Julia has been widowed (God, what an awful word, widowed) for three years when she meets Sam. It's a work-based friendship at first. She's kind of lonely and sad, he's kind of lonely and sad, and they gravitate toward each other. And then one evening they're at a bar, the last ones left from an after-work happy hour, both of them drinking more than they should, and she thinks he's kind and thoughtful and smart and he may be 10 years older than me but he's still hot as hell and I enjoy being with him and I look forward to seeing him and maybe I should just… and she kisses him. He's shocked; shocked enough to confirm that he wasn't just hanging around hoping to make it out of the friendzone. And then he's holding her face in his hands and he's kissing her too.

It's good. They're good together. It's not the earth-shattering, all-encompassing romance she had with Shaun. Julia knows she'll never have anything like that again. Most people don't even get one soulmate in their lives; no one gets two. And she knows Sam doesn't have that same desperate love that Shaun had for her; she knows she'll never have his whole heart. (She knows the woman he intended to marry was killed in a fire, she knows another woman he loved went back to her ex. She doesn't know which of these women still owns that last piece of Sam's heart.) But she loves Sam, and he loves her, and they get married.


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Presented without comment or apology.

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A brief fix-it coda for 15.10, because never have I seen an episode more in need of a fix-it.

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My recap/review of 15.05 will be late. Like, Monday night late. Way past the point where anyone is interested, most likely, but it’s important to keep the historical record intact so I’ll do it anyway. In the meanwhile, here is a different way that conversation in the Impala could have gone.

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When the New York Times said "God is dead and the war's begun" (a coda for 14.20, "Moriah")

Genre: Gen, angst, hurt!Sam
Length: ~10K
Rating: R for language and a bit of violence (and let's face it, lots of blasphemy)
Characters: Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Gabriel, Chuck Shurley
Spoilers: Through 14.20
Synopsis: Follows immediately after "It's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah." Sam shot God. God is pissed. And He's going to do something about it. (The title is from "Levon" by Elton John. Yes, I should have chosen another title from "Hallelujah." I didn't. Oh well.)


Thursday

It's Thursday morning, two days after the showdown in the cemetery, and it's still dark. Or maybe it's not really two days later. Or even morning. Dean's watch is still stopped, but the clock in his bedroom says it's 8:35 a.m on a Thursday. But do days and mornings even exist when the sun won't rise? Jack is dead and burned. Cas is gone, fucked off to Heaven to rearrange deck chairs on the Titanic, and ignoring or not hearing their prayers. And it's still dark. Phones don't work and there's no TV or internet or radio and the sun still doesn't rise.

They've definitely screwed the pooch this time.

At least the bunker, bless her mysterious little heart, still has utilities from wherever she gets them from. Dean takes long hot showers, cooks food they'll both only pick at, cleans his guns, and regularly confirms that his phone still says No Service. And watches Sam. For his part, Sam reads, plows through the card catalog like he expects to find a book titled So You Tried to Kill God and Now He's Pissed, checks his laptop as obsessively as Dean checks his phone, and sometimes he does what he's doing now — just sits at the library table with his head in his hands, ignoring the book in front of him, doing nothing.

Well. Mourning probably counts as something.

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But you don’t really care for music, do you? A coda for 14.20, "Moriah."

TW: Suicide

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I wanted to see Sam's and Dean's different versions of Jack getting The Talk, and z_publicizes suggested this scenario needed Cas and Rowena, with intercut scenes between them all, and now it's all I can think about.

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But what if there weren't any vampires at the door, because we know it wasn't about the vampires, we know Sam would have bared his throat to vampires for all of eternity if that was the way to save the people he loved, what if it was just Sam and Lucifer, and Lucifer telling him either you go with me and let me show Jack that I brought you back out of the goodness of my heart, or I snap my fingers and you're a corpse again, and Sam said I'm not playing your game, so just do it, and Lucifer held his hand up, fingers ready to snap, and then there was a strangled wait from the doorway, a word that sounded like it had been ripped from someone's throat, and Sam turned to see Dean there, Dean who had fought his way through the vampires and was standing there almost as battered and bloody as Sam, Dean who had been standing there long enough to hear the Devil's offer and to hear Sam refuse it, and he said please, Sam, please say yes.